Well I got through Christmas without you as my safety net, although extra Xanax plus leaving only 6 hours between my night meds and morning meds instead of 12 hours played a part in that. I've totally forgotten part of Christmas morning.

My feelings toward you are all over the place - sometimes I feel angry, sometimes upset, sometimes sad, sometimes overwhelmed. Sometimes I can actually think of the good stuff and momentarily I feel ok.

It is going to take a long time to forget you and to forget what happened and what didn't happen but should have.

Do you (ie Psychologists) actually "get" how much of an impact you have on our lives?