Dearheart, of course there is hope for you!!! You have had a very tough life. And it's NOT your fault. Obviously your childhood was devoid of any kind of affection or attention. Your parents must not have shown you that you WERE good enough, and that they loved you unconditionally! Now you're suffering for it.

Sweetie, you don't have to be alone. I'm sure you could go back home, if that's what you want! I don't think your husband wanted you to leave. Otherwise he wouldn't contact you at all! Why not go home? You would certainly be welcomed, I'm sure!

Your children have contacted you too! They don't want to be estranged from you. Why not get back in touch with them and try to mend fences? So what if your daughter said ****you. Let it go! Our kids said stuff like that when they're mad. As parents we have to forgive them. How old was she when she said it? WAs she a teenager? If so, then forgive her. Teenagers don't realize how hurtful those things are. They just shoot their mouths off, and don't even think of what they're doing. Forgive her. It's NOT that important!!! FAMILY is important, sweetie -- believe me.

Try to mend the fences and get the family back together. Go home and live as a family. Your heart will mend and you won't be alone. Please? I care about you -- I really do, and I don't want you to be alone.

Please let me know how things turn out, will you? I REALLY want to know. I don't want to think of you alone -- I want to think of you back home, with your family. God bless, and PLEASE take care of YOU. Hugs, Lee