Thank you for your message first off. Your words fit mine exactly. I just found out how to get free counseling only because I have no income. I wish I could help you, because I was in the same situation you were before I lost my excellent paying job. I lost lots of jobs, many relationships I tried so hard to be in, and my self image (which I never feel like I have had). Where do I start? I am so confused, I'm just on a waiting list to get help. Time is ticking and wasting for me. I feel alone most of the time on this issue of mine. I feel better coming to this site but what am I going to do after I get off this site. All I seem to do is read about my disorder and I have no money to pay for counseling, my bills, or even take care of my basic needs. I have to say I have a lot of thoughts in my mine and I feel I am going in the right direction and I am glad there is support here for me. Thank you and ever one else for sharing that there is hope.