Well ok. I've made an appointment with a therapist. Mainly to adjust my behaviour, because i'm very self-destructive.
But i think i should mention that i study medicine, and therefore i diagnose myself almost each week with another disorder; heart failure, brain tumor, narcolepsy, panic disorder, bipolar disorder, impulse control disorder, computer addiction, and so on. At this moment i only think of Panic disorder and bipolar disorder and a low self esteem. First of all, i mainly drink that much in my vacations, because i dont talk alot when sober, and i'm one of those guys who stands next to the wall for the whole evening. So i should search some new friends, who do stuff throughout the day. Second of all, i would think that i'm not bipolar, because i was very depressed last vacation. I didn't feel euphoric at all, but rather tired, anxious, brain fog, and so on.

But last vacation i did want to write movie scripts (so i contacted a friend of me who shoots movies) and then i start to write a movie script, but after 1 hour i'm bored.
Then i wanted to go sailing, so i called a company and i went sailing on the sea for a whole week (never sailed before) and i went on my own with some strangers. After one day i didnt like it anymore, but i had to stay aboard (obviously).
So then i came back, and there was a congress. And tickets were sold out. So what did i do? I've contacted one of the main people who were speaking at the congress, and asked if i could join them (because they had some tickets for their family and friends). Is that a typical mania thing to do ?
At the end i wanted to start a company. So i started talking to people about it, and i even went on with it for a while. But after a month i noticed that it wouldnt work out and i quit (mainly it stayed an idea, i never did something to accomplish it, but i talked to alot of people about it).

Is this typical for a mania, or am i just a very bored and impulsive kid in the vacations? Just thinking about what's wrong with me is driving me absolutely crazy