This is crazy and I know that no amount of violence toward me is ok. But he has never fully like "beat me up". Ok so I'm grasping at straws. He has been violent screaming every name in the book at me, shove me to ground, spit on me, break everything in the house, steal and sell for drugs. He has bp among who knows what else along with addiction and I want to save him from it. No new bright ideas came to me overnight. I don't want to lose him. He hated it in jail last time. Why is he risking it again.