Hey everyone. I'm new here and thought I'd introduce myself. I've had BPD for a long time now and it's still a struggle to deal with. The past couple of years have been relatively quiet considering my past. One of the things I miss the most of my younger days (besides my waist line) is my friends. I just don't have any friends like I used to. Granted, I've pushed most everyone away. But I could really use some love and support.

My mom is in bad health and is just getting worse. She's refusing medical treatment for her Multiple Sclerosis. She's completely bedridden and slowly dying. I'm feeling a ton of different emotions because of the situation. And since I'm only seeing a psychiatrist, I don't really have any outlet for any of these feelings. I don't want to bore anyone with an insanely long post, but suffice it to say that I'm not emotionally close to my mom and I harbor a lot of resentment for the way she abused my trust and the way she used (and still uses) my father, her ex husband.

Anyways, all of this drama is stirring up lots of difficult, painful, and strong emotions that I have no true outlet for. Hence, why I'm here. Hopefully, I've found a safe place to vent.

Thanks for reading and take care.