Welcome back, Heni!!I'm so glad you were able to call a halt to the drinking when you did. I remember how tough that can be.

Do you have a support system or team? I hear how much you want to stop and not start again ... But it's that "and not start again" which I find so much easier with my support team around me. Stopping, even, is easier ... or resisting the toughest pressure--even such a horrible string of events as you went through!!

Some people do make it on their own, just "tough it out." I can't do that. I got people . I got AA, other things. I'm not telling you you have to do it my way, just making such you've got a "Your Way" to seriously lessen the chances of this happening again. Take best care.