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Originally Posted by Torn Mind
Hello I.Am.The.End. welcome here. Sounds like you've learned to cope with AvPD to some extent, at least good insofar as you're able to get out and mingle with people. I can relate very much to being able to do 'normal' things, but unable to get close to people. Or maybe that's not being able to let people get close to me, not sure on that one...
Twice welcome too, not sure that there's enough traffic here to be of much help to someone wanting to find out how to help another with AvPD, but you can only ask. Maybe start a thread or two with questions you'd like answers to?
As for checking in today, I'm not sure how I feel - bleh. Post Christmas let down maybe. Have to go to the hairdresser's tomorrow and that's making me anxious I HATE having my hair done it really brings out my latent paranoia  . Anyone else hate doing things like that which most people would see as something to look forward to? |
That is comforting as I feel bad for being in this forum as I don't have AvPD as badly as others do. Although I think it's because I was sort of forced to "get over" some of it. I'm a musician so I perform and after a while it starts to get easier. And I'm around people a lot...playing in large ensembles makes it somewhat easier to be in crowds, however I still hate crowds. I tend to have panic attacks and trouble breathing. And I'm around the same people all the time it seems, so some of them begin to seem "safe" to interact a little bit with.
But with all of that, I've had some major setbacks. I was rejected in the worst way possible by someone I was beginning to have feelings for and I've been afraid to even have feelings since then. And I was starting to be comfortable telling people I like them at that point... And recently, I had a very humiliating experience playing in front of people. Now I'm afraid to even practice and have people hear me (more so than before) and my performance anxiety is worse than it had been.
Maybe I'm strange in the fact that I like getting my hair done. But I do go to the same lady at the same place every time so they're not "strangers" and I know she'll do the right thing with my hair. And my hair is the only memorable and attractive thing about me physically.