Silentlycrying, glad you checked back in. Sorry about the nausea. I know how you feel. I recently started trying muscle relaxation exercises and achieved an entire half day without nausea--felt so good I didn't know what to do with myself! I didn't realize how constant it has been the last few years.

Torn Mind, thanks for the poke! Yep, got too freaked out to post or even read for a few days. I get really scared if I get positive feedback. I'm afraid to disappoint someone later, so I run. Guess I'll start my count over.

Two Sons, that is a great story! I recently went to the DMV for my license and the worker tried to show me the photo she took--nope! I pretended to glance over but didn't really look. Then she called me out on it--she actually said "Moira, you're scared!" Aargh! My worst nightmare--that my fear is really that obvious. I recovered okay by saying I just hate taking pictures. Definitely had the instant flop sweat going, though, and didn't leave the house again for weeks.

I.Am.The.End I'm glad you're here posting and giving ideas. People who are in the worst grips of AvPD may not be able to do more than read, if that. So your input is much appreciated. Sorry about the romantic setback. That hurts so much. I'm glad you're still trying to work on practicing even though it's harder for you now. I am able to speak publicly if I'm well prepared because I feel like there are boundaries on people's expectations. Unfortunately, that has not translated to other parts of my life.

Welcome, Twice! Hope you find some helpful info. The articles portion of PC can be a good resource, too.

Blue Coral, those get togethers can be so tough! I recently forced myself to go to my husband's holiday party and kept my rumination to a minimum afterward. Sometimes I get over-enthusiastic or sycophantic to try to compensate for my natural behavior, and I always feel painfully vulnerable and ashamed afterwards. Didn't let it eat me up too much afterwards this time.

Hmm, I may feel that way after this post. I am revved up now because I screwed up my courage to post!

Today I had trouble controlling my daydreaming and starting productive work. The thought of emailing people was so painful that I could not even direct my brain to think about it! I will keep trying this evening, because my absolute deadline is really almost over. All I want to do is zone out, though.