thankyou seeker for your response

i have three children 15,13 and 5 two girls and a boy they do not live with me but i have regular contact every fortnight .i live with my husband and his 2 children 15, 13

this is my forth relationship.i have the 2 eldest from ist relationship of 6 yrs but found out he cheated on me when i was 7 mths pregnant with first i was 16, in the down stairs living room of his sisters where we were staying.had an affair on him with my next relationship whom i married and seemed obsessed about found out he was watching lesb.xxx movies and found another womans home phone number which i found when i rand it he told me it was a works mate!!!!so i divorced him then met my third relatonship which was where i had my last child that relationship was violent so we split after i cheated on him twice so he got the message as he said to me we were not finished until he decided.then i met my last he has had 4 relationships i am the 4 th i did not know of his violent issues until people told me after i called the police i found out he was looking at other women on the net by chance and when i confronted him he would go mad at me then accusing me of cheating on me , i told him everything the first night i met him about my last relationships for a reason so non of my ex,s could sh't stir but i think that was a bad mistake as he uses that in a arguement.

he loves me, like he said he has never cheated on me but i have on him,so maybe he checks other women out on sites for pure ignorance he does not know why but when i did it i got a punch.

things are better now with him and his accusations but i can't stop checking his pc every night he knows i do it, sometimes i go mad if i don,t check because then i think he is up to somthing .

feel alittle better