Maven there is beauty at all ages and stages of life, in appearance, in innocence, in wisdom, in knowledge. Saying you were beautiful is not egotistical, we all are beautiful. there is something beautiful about an 80 year old women. I think so.

And there is no perfect.. what would that be? What would it look like? I mean unless we are all perfect just as we are, where we are, right now. I strived for this image I had of perfect for so many years, I have been anorexic almost my entire life. When I look back now at all the lost time I spent hating myself, my body. thats the painful thought. Loving myself as I am right now, and not because I reached that idea I held so tighly, that is the peaceful thought, that is freedom for me. I still struggle tho not as much, but that is only in this last year.

What are some things you could do not to reach the ideal.. The perfect, or anything like that, but that you could do to connect with your body, regain that appreciation right where you are now ? You still might want to change somethings, I understand what you are saying. But it might still help to really kind of fall in love with your body once again, it is a presious vessle, it house you, your being. That is pretty special in any form.

I am still working on this, but I found something to help me see my body in a new way. I wanted to change some things surgically, but sometimes what I wonder is if I had, would I feel any different. Was all my feelings about it really coming from my " problem " areas. If I changed what I felt was the problem physically.. I am not really sure but I think my internal feelings might not change with it.