I think maybe you could try explaining how traumatized you are, tell her what a constant vigilance and feeling of threat is doing to you. Most likely she will not think there is more a threat to you than to anyone else on earth, but you can tell her that you think it is real and you have a real reaction to it. And tell her that even if she doesn't agree on the threat, she must agree on the trauma which seems quite severe. I mean, no matter if the threat is real or not, the reaction is very real and she can never deny that.

That is if she is worth trusting. Even though I don't think nurses are usually working for the menace, some of them are not worth trusting in other ways. Like treating you with respect, showing empathy, taking time, that they need to do.

About meds, I don't think they are a cure all, but when I took an antipsychotic (usually I don't tolerate them), even if I don't hav psychosis I somehow felt better. Not because I was in a better mood but because my thoughts didn't just mess about, I had the same thoughts as before, but they sort of waited to be thought one by one which was very nice. But then again I have ADD so maybe my brain is pretty much about jumbled thoughts.

And I don't think you are whining. For some reason I look forward to reading your posts.