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Old Dec 28, 2012, 03:52 PM
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Originally Posted by Clinte89 View Post
I've been there I know exactly what you mean. Just want to go away or wonder if this is some hell that I live in to feel this for ever. I feel ya I really do. But I'm sure your family loves you you just can't see that now. Maybe you need to talk to your pdoc ASAP, or consider a hospital stay. Just please hang in there it can get better. Maybe look into ect that's what I had to do and it helped greatly.
I did ECT's but cannot continue treatment or go back for follow-ups... This is it!
Loving and caring are two different things. They may love me, but they don't care, not really. And I know this. My husband doesn't care other than there wouldn't be anyone to clean or take care of the kids. My kids would be devastated initially, but they would grow and get over it and, hopefully, be told that they ARE better off without me there, screaming, sad, crying all the time.. telling them what to do. That's the only part that makes me try, but when everything works agaist you, you have to decide whether it's you or what it is you're trying to do that needs to change. And, it's me! It's always been me!! I don't think I'm supposed to be here any more!