Hello all! I haven't posted in quite a while. Just wanted to pop in and say how good my life is going right now!! I feel like I'm finally working with myself after so freakin long!! I still have those days where nothing makes any sense, but I'm trying to view those moments as a way to conquer my fears and negativity to improve how I see myself and to help me work on who I really want to be. I've found that the only obstacle that is actually in my way to becoming all that I can be is myself. I've spent my whole life with a little voice inside my head telling me I'm worthless and not deserving of love, but guess what? That voice was just me! All my fears of rejection and the unknown. I guess im just realizing that those fears are meaningless. So what if someone doesn't like? I like me! And there's others in the world who like me, shockingly enough haha!
It's sort of mindblowing to me to think about how different I am now. I'm talking to people, hanging out with people, and even reaching out to people. Holly conoly! And all it took was just one moment of letting go my fears. One moment of not thinking of how others will judge me. And now, I feel like I can really be myself around these people. I'm just happy, I never thought I could feel this way.
This book is really helping me so I thought I would just put it out there: Thoughts Without a Thinker; Psychotherapy from a Buddhist Perspective by Mark Epstein.

I wish you all the peace and love that the world has to give! And I wanted to say that I love all of you, for love is all I want to give from now on!!!