Hi Nightstriker - I have thought about different things like that but I just can't see myself doing meditation, I am not a religious person and I know you don't have to be to do meditation but what I mean is, I am quite a strong believer that those types of things are useless, I know that is quite a strange thing to say when it obviously helps some people but being as strong minded as I am, I am not sure whether it would work.

I guess the only way is too try.

Something has to change either way because I am definitely at the very end of my tether, and with no fight left, I am hanging on by a thread of a thread!