Why on earth can't you see old OR new friends? For him to keep you from doing what you WANT to do is totally unacceptable! He is a controlling creep, and it all stems from his low self-esteem. He ACTS like he's "macho-man" but he's not. His self-esteem is so low, you'd have to pick it up with a shovel. So he treats you crummy so that YOUR self-esteem is rock bottom too. He doesn't want YOUR self-esteem to be higher than his.

You need to get away from him until he gets therapy. He definitely NEEDS it. But even more than that, YOU NEED THERAPY. Your self esteem has been battered and plowed under. You seem to think that a man can do this kind of thing and punish you for misbehaving! That's ridiculous!!

Please call a good therapist, and start therapy. Then maybe you can get your self esteem back to "normal" and also get other issues taken care of. I'm sure there ARE other issues that need work. And please do it soon, ok? God bless. Hugs, Lee