TinaThinks - you are scarily like me in that particular post.

I have that obsession and I am now 22, but that is mainly because my Mother is gay, and I hate the thought of being the same, alot of that is because I would worry about disowned.
I know for a fact I am not gay, but I react exactly the same way as you and feel the same way as you.
I think you and I would get on really well so if you need to chat, feel free to PM me. We can always exchange emails etc if you want to talk further.

I can't offer advice as I am struggling quite badly too with coping, and I am the same with the worrying, I worry if I am not worried if that makes sense!

Take Care x