Thanks you both for your kind words and suggestions. It's appreciated...Roadie, sometimes I wonder if my rights were violated too...the other day I got a call from DSHS from a woman who said my aid was denied...she said she had taken the liberty of finishing the application process for me, and she put in I was a full time student with financial aid...and that is why I was denied...even though that isn't the case. Today I tried to get in touch with the Suicide and crisis hotline....the first woman I talked to was nice...but she tried passing me off to someone else...and gave me a different number to call...then when I tried calling the number I got a "disconnected" signal. So I reached out to the online chat for the help line...but was met with a very grumpy man who keeps saying to go back to my family and have them help me...even though I explained that they wont/cant help me...so I dont know what to do at this point, when I can't even get help from the Crisis hotline =[