We have come a long way in the treatment of OCD. Please do some research and find the people nearest you who specialize in this as it is a highly specialized field due to the nature of treatment needs. OCD foundation is a good start. It is not the end of the world. There is a scale, I forget what it is called but it measures your discomfort when you can't follow through with your rituals. Memory poor. Ask me anything you like, pm me if you wish and I will try to help you find appropriate help nearest you. Good luck.