I am a strong minded person as well and meditation did work for me. I am also not religious. For me the mediation is just about the calmness it provides. That said, I am not trying to force it on you at all. And from what you said it sounds like you would have difficulty with it. Part of any Cognitive Behavioral Therapy or mediation, at least in my experience, is that you have to have to give it a chance. If you already are convinced it won't work. I don't know how much it would help you. Again I would highly recommend that you try and see a good T. Whatever you do, please don't give up. Just hang in there. And the rest of the community here and I will be here to listen when you need us.

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