Afraid and nervous that I am going to be laid off when we get back to the office after the break. Everyone got a review but me. It is weird and nerve-wracking. I am trying to not worry about what 2nd Jan will bring. But it is difficult. Trying to enjoy the time off yet wondering what is going to happen while everyone is off skiing and enjoying time with family with all their money and resources, and I am sitting home broke and worrying (of couse my mother's words to help financially were just that. Empty, false words...taunts, false hope, empty promises simply to make themselves feel better).

Sending positive vibes into the universe for an uneventful, typical day. But there is that part of me that is just waiting. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. It is so scary.