I'm so sorry your social worker reacted in such a punitive way. It seems I've managed only to add to your distress--the last thing you need. I am not going to suggest anything else ... as you say, you're hurting and confused, and I've done nothing but make things worse even if my intentions were otherwise.

I'm especially sorry that somehow you've gotten the idea that you've not been a good member of PsychCentral. You have not only sent me well-wishes ... You have never failed to be grateful to everyone who supports you. That's what peer support is, and you lack nothing in that area. You're one of the most grateful members we have.

Bless you, dear Jen. Life is so hard, I know, and I cry for all of us. I hope you will choose life, because we want you with us. I like knowing you are in my world.
* much love and gentle hugs, always for you *

Roadie