I am not feeling too great today, seems to be a cumulative thing bit by bit over recent days and now I’m starting to bottom out a bit – making myself keep up with people in real world because I’m feeling too much like crawling into a hole and pulling a big stone over the top. And that just makes me feel worse than ever so not really an option either.

I really do hate myself sometimes . Why can’t I just sort out once and for all the rubbish in my head and get on with having a normal life .

Torn