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Thank You to all who have reply and shared, sorry I am not the only one who gets this I wouldn't wish any of these feelings onto anyone. It's horrible when other people don't understand and they just think you’re doing the whole oh I feel ill and blah blah blah. When actually although it's caused by what I am think, trying to counter my thoughts still doesn't counter my reactions my body just does that every time even though I try to keep the thoughts under bay. However each time I am made to feel worse for allowing this to occur or complaining about it, when others see this happen to me there like what's up with her get away we don't want to catch the plague or something, but then others are like you just need to stop worrying and get over it, it's all in your head, your fault. Of course all this does is strength the anxiety and makes it worse because I panic when it occurs desperately trying to stop it when it heightens it. I really do feel for you all, sending my love and hugs.
What I get is drained of energy, go extremely pale, sometimes bright red on checks when they burn... and I don't mean flushing I mean full on burning temperature come on all of a sudden although my figures go freezing cold at the same time which is really weird. I get extreme headaches, eyes burn and go all blurry, I shake sweat a lot, stomach upset is the worst thing of all for me, I feel really bad from that starting up and usually right just before I have to go and go something I need to be in the calmest frame of mind for which actually send me into a frenzy. My body aches all over and it feels like someone caved into my bones sometimes, I get stiff freeze up, sometimes I go to speak yet no words come out and I am in a fit of tears because my brain just cut me off from speaking and wanting to stay what I need to get out. I can barely think and any think takes all of my energy away. I haven't slept properly in days even months and only fall asleep in early hours of morning when my body finally shut itself down. There are many more but all of these thing even though some are not physical end up making me feel ill because of frustration and negative self-defeating hatred I hold of myself for allowing them to happen and affect me and my life and so on this goes because it all feeds back into one big thing which is just making me feel very ill for a while now. I have got to the worse I have ever felt.
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