I am trying to ease up a little bit all the time. I have made huge progress over the past year. I'm just feeling so frustrated right now. I'm working so hard at taking it easy, easing up and taking it moment by moment that I feel on guard all the time. I have to be perfect at yet another thing or else I will fall to pieces. So much pressure...... yet again.

I'm stressed about being good at this healing stuff. I just am wired that way and it is so hard to feel okay with things. I hate to say it but the best I ever feel is when I'm working out hard hard, or in the jacuzzi after or after a couple of drinks. I yearn for excitement in my life and there is none right now.
Don't know what to do with myself.
whine, whine, whine,. It's not like me to whine so much. Sorry.