Hi- I'm also a new member. I kinda know where you are coming from. I suffer from clinical depression..another word for chronic...anyway I felt like my whole world was falling apart as well. There is hope. Going to a therapist is the first step. I know that you wish your husband would understand how you feel but remember he is dealing with alot as well. Men don't talk about how they feel like we do. They have their own ways of dealing with problems. Don't give up on him or yourself. What you need to remember is that you have to take care of yourself emotionally.Your children need their mother well.I have been on medication for several years and it really does help you cope with stress. It has helped me look at situations differently and also realize that things aren't always as bad as they seem to be. I have been at rock bottom and have worked my way up. Find a therapist that you feel comfortable talking with. It does help. My soon to be ex husband was diagnosed about a year after we got married with Hepatitis C and it was difficult for me to handle his illness, work, etc. He lost his job and I was the only one who was working plus I had a very demanding job. I was seeing a therapist regulary and it helped me deal with everything that was going on.We didn't separate because of his being sick....anyway what I'm trying to say is it will work out and things will get better. Pray every nite and keep your appts and focus on you and your children. Your husband will come around. If you need to talk feel free to email me at witchykitty37@aol.com. I hope this gives you some hope and help.
I hope your son is doing better. Good luck and take care

Gypsylace