There are times when I wake up much earlier than I have to and have difficulty getting back to sleep. I guess depression has a lot to do with that.

Just as I wake up and about to get up, that's when I feel the worst. It's because I think about health issues for myself. I think about how much time do I have left. Also, how would I deal with myself if I got a major illness, since I'm all alone. And I think about the lack of friends that I have and it's not going to get better with time.