Yeah, SI always becomes worse and worse... as you do it more you're prepared to inflict more pain and damage on yourself. I've got bad scars now on both my arms, very noticeable and very red, so I can't wear short-sleeves now but *shrugs* it's my own fault so I can't complain. But, I started SI and intended never ever to touch my arms... same with ODing... I meant never ever to OD and instead ended up taking quite a lot of stuff several times... stupid of me... but at the time I felt so self-destructive that I didn't care... so better to avoid SI at all, because it always gets past self-imposed limits.