Binge Drinking is going to cause ANYONE problems whether they have a mental illness or not. I am pretty certain anyone that has gotten drunk has done some stupid stuff and feel some guilt over it. A therapist can help you deal with your emotions over these type of things.. You have to learn to let it go and focus on goals for your future.

Since your in school for Medicine and have already been self diagnosing you know its time to see a Doctor lol . Your fear of medication is understandable .. No one really wants to have a condition that MAY require them to take a medication.. Many people can and do manage there BP with out medications. Some people need meds. Whatever works is okay and acceptable.

I think Therapy could help you to let go of all the guilt you carry and help you learn ways to manage your stress and address your drinking and its effect on your life.

Good Luck and welcome to PC