BigMama - I'm single.But I relate. Can't have sex - just remembered rape at 13/14 yrs old and then another in 20's by cop I worked with. mid 50's never married no kids, Started counselling for Abuse & memories came up. Can't heal until alone and safe. am safe now and healing is happening at its own pace. My T specializes in Historical abuse,trauma & PTSD. It is scarey - but I have come so far. P doc is afraid I will crack so I am slow and easy and don't DIG. I agree with your T - you need to be safe first. xoxoxo BB