Roadie,
Hon you haven't added to my distress, I can promise you that. I take everything you guys say to heart and really do appreciate how much support you all have given to me.
I have been calling in the 4x a day as need to. So far today is a better day. I just got up for the day cause I just couldn't be awake during the day cause I knew the thoughts would get to me and the anxiety would make things seem so much worse. I was able to finally vacume my apt. it hasn't been done in almost a month or so.

Thanks again for everyone who has responded and please know I care about you all.

Hugs,
Jen