Lots of hugs to you--I struggle with eating, also. In fact, today I totally stuffed myself with donuts. I also quit drinking and smoking, but eating is a challenge for me. The thing is, at least with cigarettes and alcohol, you can give those up completly but you can't exactly just not eat. There have been lots of times when I wished we didn't need food, because I feel like it would be easier for me not to eat at all then mess with "controlled eating." ((((((HUGS)))))