I need to rant.

So, today is the last day my power will be connected. I am calling to the local food bank today to see if they can help me keep it on. I may be without you guys for a few weeks otherwise, which makes me want to cry in itself since Ive been so housebound this is really the only way I get to socialize is online, seeing as how I dont live directly in town.

I haven't been sleeping. I can't afford my sleeping pills, and I am getting jerked around by my social worker. They won't pay for them. Well, fine, I guess I just wont sleep.haha.(sarcasm)

Found out my boyfriend sort of stole from me( I say sort of because its a long story)moreso lied about something I asked him about because he thought I would get angry. Yes, I got angry. Would have been less angry had he told me.

I dont know how things are going to go. Im scared to get upset and kick him the heck out, because hes my roommate right now, and if he goes then I definetly have to go. Im already three months behind in rent, just myself here I would just sink farther. Moving somewheres I can afford off the 290.00 they accord us for rent here in halifax (with my three cats) - hm. Not going to happen. So I guess then they mean that everyone on assistance should be in a womens shelter? Well no wonder they fill so fast.

*sigh* I am sick of life. Im tired of eating once a day and starving for the rest. Im tired of letting people walk all over me. Im tired of being sick, Im tired of being tired.

Im just darned tired and I am not seeing a light at the end of this tunnell.

I keep searching for something good to hold on to, but I cant seem to find it.

House is absolute disaster, noones been cleaning since about a week. you can invision the msss I am sure.

I want to crawl under something and cover my ears until the world goes away.