(((rio))) I think you will feel a whole lot better once you can talk about this with someone that can guide you in the healing direction. I agree, don't be so hard on yourself, you were six years old and trying to process this...it's weird how stuff so early on in our lives can be held so tightly, and stored so deeply in our minds it never dawns on us that it still affects us today. I'm really glad your mum is being so supportive...wtg ((mum)))!!!!

hugs Lisa