Hello ZoeyAshman, its nice to meet you.
It is good that you have shared your story with someone. There are many people in this forum who are facing similar problems here in this forum. They can help you and guide you through your problems. People in this forum are great friends, trust me. I have found quite a few friends for me, here.

Looks like you have gone through a lot in your life, had a difficult childhood and right now your symptoms have returned because of the death of your beloved Nana (this death is the trigger and precipitating factor of the anxiety attacks).

Zoey, the way you are feeling that is no ambition is okay for some time. Many people feel less motivated some days of their life. But is you continue feeling no ambition and no goals for more than a week than you can read some self help books and seek social support for inspiration.

By the way, I am a psychologist and I have treated many people with full blown anxiety symptoms and other problems too with sound therapy and hypnosis.

http://soundanxietytreatment.com/

I hope this helps