Thanks you TigerLilly. I was seeing a T through my jobs employee assistance program but that ended when I lost my job in October...I am currently looking for a T that accepts my husbands insurance here in town...I was in therapy years ago and was diagnosed with Clinicaly depression I know my symptoms and I have fallen into its grip again...I know I need professional help because I have been trying for months to do this on my own and it's just getting worse. I have days when I am so happy and wonder what the heck I was thinking being so depressed but then I crash and lately it hurts to even wake up...If it wasn't for my children I'm be in bed all day.