Thanks WrongTurn. I definately understand how you feel about seeing more dark than light. Some days I cant even see a flicker of light. Its always in those times I have to try to find hope somehow, anyhow I can. I cant bear to live in a world as dark as the one Ive felt in my heart and soul at times. Then I realized seeing only darkness was happening to me because that was where I focused my attention. Just a little searching confirmed for me there was ugliness and unkindness everywhere. I felt this way day after day, week after week, month after month. Ive slowly learned to change my focus.

Most of the images we are presented with are someones manufacturing scheme. I dont want to be a sucker for them or anyone. I dont mind seeing smiling happy people tho (but I admit there were times when I hated that). It reminds that life can be good.

Im sorry life has been the opposite for you.