(((Doingmybest))) if you aren't on any meds and you are having 'thoughts' I would get help asap. Do you have a plan??? If so go to the ER. I've been there with not sleeping at night etc.... I have to take something so I can sleep at night otherwise I will be up for several hours in the middle of the night. I need to get my meds tweaked. Unfortunately getting the meds right doesn't happe always on the first try.