Geez,
I do but I know I wouldn't go through with it with my children in the home....sometimes I think of dropping them off at my Moms or in-laws but I don't...If my husband is being supportive he texts me while he's at work and it takes the edge off a bit...on days when he seems fed up with me he ignores my messages and it makes me feel rejected and the urges get stronger...dies that sound dumb? he is the only one I have told about my thoughts so when he blows me off I feel as if I don't matter. either way my children are my motivation to seek help, they are so darn cute. My 5 year old puts me on clouds based on my mood he will say mom your on your sad cloud today but it's ok...I want so badly to get passed this so they don't have their only memories of childhood be of their depressed mother...I have only felt depressed a few months now, since October. I had been managing well for a few years before that.