Im so sorry. It is so lonely feeling you have no one u can trust or be yourself with. The only person I really have is my lil sis. im 17 and she is 7.... but its not like a 7 yr, old can know I cut or binge or purge or any of it. So usually i feel very alone. plus i live at college so i only see her once or 2 times a month.
People at college know i see a counselor but only 2 ppl know why and they only know i cut and they only know that because they helped me dye my hair for a play....
I hope you find someone safe who you can trust.