Life does seem very mundane- especially if many people DON"T like you or your NOT popular/dont have a significant other- or your not famous/celebrity- Hey this point of view might seem childish but there's some validity to it.. On top of THAT... The most fun or pleasurable things in life are seen as 'bad' by society or immature- or unacceptable by god- I digress. You get what i'm saying.. Lifes a constant struggle. I'm sorry its just seems like your screwed either way. (damned if u do, damned if u don't). (Did I mention dealing with mental illness on top of everything?)