Thank you so much for the advice. I have an xbox and a ps2 which i enjoy better and recently bought a sims game and played that for a bit which kinda took me away from myself. I forced myself to eat though ive had no apetite for days. I at least try to force myself to eat once a day. My mind feels so warped from what i used to feel like at the moment...almost like fried..like im on drugs or something. I hate that feeling. I feel confused with life and just really lost as to why i still exsist. I dont feel like crying out for help as i feel alone yet want to feel alone? I dont know whats wrong with me. And too im not sure why i keep trying to figure it out as im diagnosed with so many things that im not sure which phase im trying to help? Sorry if this seems not to make sense..i dont feel like i make sense.