Dont expect perfection. Sure it could be better and with input from people about how the system has its downfalls, in time, it can improve. You are factoring yourself out of this equation. Like you depend on them, they depend on you. I hear you are sad and lonely. I wish you didnt feel that. If you put it all together, the help you get at school (not perfect) and the help you give yourself (in reaching out), maybe some combination can get you thru these trying times. Granted, none of it is perfect but with life, they left out the guarantees. Be your own strength to the best you can, lean on helpful others as needed. Its not all perfect but trying is ok. Give yourself and others a break. Sometimes what you see as a failure is better than what the competition could pull off. You never know til the buzzer rings.