It's true the best help you will ever get comes from within you. But sometimes you can get help from the outside. There are people that care whether you live or not. I am one of them. Focus on school and learning what you want to learn. Focus on where you want to be when the spring time comes. Do something nice for yourself. Find something you like to do. Do you like video games or computer games? Find something that is yours and you like to do. Obsession isn't always a bad thing. I'm obsessed with having clean dishes. But you know what, I feel great when I get to eat from the clean dishes.