((Hugs)) and I'm so sorry,

Firstly I would stop listening to your mother... She sounds like a big factor of your disorder.
How can you even begin to learn who you are, if you own mother is describing you thro drunken eyes and putting you down.

Also, just my opinion... But I wouldn't be rushing to tell new people or boyfriends about your disorder. Not that you have anything to be ashamed of but just because it can be frightening for people who don't yet know us.

It's also frightening for people thAt do know us sometimes.