Hi Thor ~ Have you tried therapy? Believe me, it sure helped me. When my anger and emotions were out of control, I actually admitted myself to a mental hospital. I stayed for 2 weeks, and while there I saw a psychiatrist daily, and had group therapy every day too.

After i got out I saw the psychiatrist weekly for a good long time, and then monthly for a year. Then she retired.

I then saw a psychologist and she was amazing and I made huge progress. I stayed with her for quite awhile. There is where I got my "power" back.

You can get yours back too. Get some counseling!!! You can control your emotions & anger, and keep your wife from accusing you too! LOL God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee