I woke up this morning in a different state of mind...I feel strangely optimistic. I knew it's probably just temporary because I can have good days and then crash pretty hard but I will be seeking professional help...I know I need it...Maybe I can email a therapists office right now that I am feeling well so that they can contact me when they reopen (probably on Wednesday).... that way if I am feeling low again it'll be easier to take that step...