Most Days I wake up just fine but when I go to bed I feel depressed bc I dont i dont have anyone to share my life with and feel hopless. I have been diagnosed with dysthymia a depression disorder. I my classmates from high school still reject me from 12 years ago and most label me. I'm depressed bc im lonely and medication is not the answer. I dont want to gain weight. II live independently and have a developmental disability. When I eat i also feel better. My father physically and mentally abused me calling me retarded and christmas eve kicked me and my mom out when I was 12.