So I have been thinking about writing this post lately.
I am tired to the maximum. I have been pushing myself lately, just to try to score some good grades. I am studying like a lot and I have got my insomnia too but I am trying to forget all about it and focus more on my studies. It's killing me that I am working really hard and I can hardly achieve something all because that I can't relate stuff together.And it's all because I am a bipolar. I am extremely proud of myself that I can still make it through without medicines, but it destroys me too that I am losing my ability to get the good grades. I have all the potential locked in there, but I can't get it out. Sometimes I feel that it may be good to share my sickness with someone, but then I come to a conclusion that nobody would want to listen how hard I am struggling. Everybody assumes that I'm so happy, that nothing is ever wrong with me. But nobody ever knows that I constantly feel like everything is falling apart, and my insides are numb.