(((((((((((nothemama)))))))))
I feel that way too sometimes. But, we're here so we have to try to make the best of it. Even if it's not what we want or how we think it should be. It's like life is a constant struggle. Once in awhile everything makes sense and we're really happy we're here. That wave will come around to find you again nothemama and I hope it comes to you soon.
Take care of yourself.